a bunch happiness from heart

Dear Allah,

Thank you for allowing me to have a wonderful relationship with and support from my parents.
Thank you for all the friends you bring into my life, I am glad that my number of friends always keep increasing. Thank you for giving me the strength and patience in responding to all the challenges I had to face. Thank you for all the opportunities given, because of You I finally had the courage to do what I have been wanting to do. Thank you for keeping everyone I love healthy, including myself as well. And thank you for up...
Thank you for having been with me, virtually and in real life, since the very first born...
It's funny how life gets around, but I am glad you were all there with me. I hope I have been a good person for you all, and I also hope I have contributed a part in your life. Together we are strong...:)

Penghianatan Selamanya Tak Termaafkan

YOU SHOULD TO KNOW THAT I NEVER LET YOU BACK IN, DUDE!!!

say what???
u told me that you guilty?
owh, what a nice jokes!! i love it...!

some 'nothing' that coming from God...

*Grown-ups love figures. When you tell them that you have made a new friend, they never ask you any questions about essential matters. They never say to you, "What does his voice sound like? What games does he love best? Does he collect butterflies?" Instead, they demand: "How old is he? How many brothers has he? How much does he weigh? How much money does his father make?" Only from these figures do they think they have learned anything about him. * Though the circular round-and-round of routine be the bulk of life's affairs, make an occasional jutting diversion - of fun, love, or something that will outlast you - so the shape and motion of your life shall resemble the round lifegiving sun with bright rays shining forth from all directions.

* Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones; and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace.

My New Photo (edit)

Facebookku Keblokir secara MISTERIUS part 1

berasa nggak lulus ujian paling penting sedunia, (maksudnya SHOCK nya) waktu account fb qu ga bisa dibuka..padahal email n password dah bner smua.. T.T higzzzz
padahal temenku uda ribuan n hampir smuanya kenal...(yaaa skitar 40% emg temen bneran bukan temen ALAY)
Tp skrg,,aku ngerasa kehilangan mreka smua n trpksa harus bikin account baru lagi...dan hrz ng add satu2 lg..huaaaaaaaa....
bayangin aja, smua voto2 narsisku, notes yg jumlahnya dah puluhan, posting blog (yg ini) smuanya lari ke situ tp skrg hanya tinggal nama...
ugh, males bgt hrs ngulang lg...

-bad day

Women and Her Faith

Spiritual Equality of Women and Men

Allah has got ready forgiveness and tremendous rewards for the Muslim men and women; the believing men and women; the devout men and women; the truthful men and women; the patiently suffering men and women; the humble men and women; the almsgiving men and women; the fasting men and women, the men and women who guard their chastity; and the men and women who are exceedingly mindful of Allah. (Al-Ahzab 33:35)

Attitudes towards women
O ye who believe! Ye are forbidden to inherit women against their will. Nor should ye treat them with harshness, that ye may take away part of the dower ye have given them,-except where they have been guilty of open lewdness; on the contrary live with them on a footing of kindness and equity. If ye take a dislike to them it may be that ye dislike a thing, and Allah brings about through it a great deal of good. (An-Nisa 4:19)

Collaboration and consultation
The believing men and women, are associates and helpers of each other. They (collaborate) to promote all that is beneficial and discourage all that is evil; to establish prayers and give alms, and to obey Allah and his Messenger. Those are the people whom Allah would grant mercy. Indeed Allah is Mighty and Wise. (Al-Taubah 9:71)

Examples of Consensual Decision Making
If both spouses decide, by mutual consent and consultation, on weaning [their baby], there is no blame on either. If you want to have your babies breastfed by a foster mother you are not doing anything blame-worthy provided you pay to the fostermother what you had agreed to offer, in accordance with the established manner. Fear Allah and know that Allah is aware it what you are doing". (Al-Baqarah, 2:233)

Women's Right to Attend Mosques
Narrated Ibn Umar: The Prophet (p.b.u.h) said, "Allow women to go to the Mosques at night." (Bukhari Volume 2, Book 13, Number 22)

Narrated Ibn Umar: One of the wives of Umar (bin Al-Khattab) used to offer the Fajr and the 'Isha' prayer in congregation in the Mosque. She was asked why she had come out for the prayer as she knew that Umar disliked it, and he has great ghaira (self-respect). She replied, "What prevents him from stopping me from this act?" The other replied, "The statement of Allah's Apostle (p.b.u.h) : 'Do not stop Allah's women-slave from going to Allah s Mosques' prevents him." (Bukhari Volume 2, Book 13, Number 23)

Ibn 'Umar reported: Grant permission to women for going to the mosque in the night. His son who was called Waqid said: Then they would make mischief. He (the narrator) said: He thumped his (son's) chest and said: I am narrating to you the hadith of the Messenger of Allah (may peace be upon him), and you say: No! (Sahih Muslim Book 004, Number 0890)

Ibn Umar reported: The Messenger of Allah (may peace be upon him) said: Do not deprive women of their share of the mosques, when they seek permission from you. Bilal said: By Allah, we would certainly prevent them. 'Abdullah said: I say that the Messenger of Allah (may peace be upon him) said it and you say: We would certainly prevent them! (Sahih Muslim Book 004, Number 0891)

Yahya related to me from Malik from Yahya ibn Said that Atika bint Zayd ibn Amr ibn Nufayl, the wife of Umar ibn al-Khattab, used to ask Umar ibn al-Khattab for permission to go to the mosque. He would keep silent, so she would say, "By Allah, I will go out, unless you forbid me," and he would not forbid her. (Sunan Abu Dawud Book 14, Number 14.5.14)

The Common Performance of Ablutions
Narrated Ibn Umar: "It used to be that men and women would perform ablutions together in the time of the Messenger of Allah's assembly." (Bukhari: 1: Ch. 45, Book of Ablution)

Women's Right of Proposal
Narrated Sahl: A woman came to the Prophet, and presented herself to him (for marriage). He said, "I am not in need of women these days." Then a man said, "O Allah's Apostle! Marry her to me." The Prophet asked him, "What have you got?" He said, "I have got nothing." The Prophet said, "Give her something, even an iron ring." He said, "I have got nothing." The Prophet asked (him), "How much of the Quran do you know (by heart)?" He said, "So much and so much." The Prophet said, "I have married her to you for what you know of the Quran." (Bukhari Volume 7, Book 62, Number 72)

Women's Right of Permission
Narrated Abu Huraira: The Prophet said, "A matron should not be given in marriage except after consulting her; and a virgin should not be given in marriage except after her permission." The people asked, "O Allah's Apostle! How can we know her permission?" He said, "Her silence (indicates her permission)." (Bukhari Volume 7, Book 62, Number 67)

Narrated Khansa bint Khidam Al-Ansariya that her father gave her in marriage when she was a matron and she disliked that marriage. So she went to Allah's Apostle and he declared that marriage invalid. (Bukhari Volume 7, Book 62, Number 69)

The Right of Women not to be Forced
Narrated Ibn 'Abbas: Barira's husband was a slave called Mughith, as if I am seeing him now, going behind Barira and weeping with his tears flowing down his beard. The Prophet said to 'Abbas, "O 'Abbas ! are you not astonished at the love of Mughith for Barira and the hatred of Barira for Mughith?" The Prophet then said to Barira, "Why don't you return to him?" She said, "O Allah's Apostle! Do you order me to do so?" He said, "No, I only intercede for him." She said, "I am not in need of him." (Bukhari: Volume 7, Book 63, Number 206)

Asserting Women's Rights
Ibn Al-Jauzi narrated the virtues and merits of Umar bin Al-Khattab (Allah bless him) in the following words: Umar forbade the people from paying excessive dowries and addressed them saying: "Don't fix the dowries for women over forty ounces. If ever that is exceeded I shall deposit the excess amount in the public treasury". As he descended from the pulpit, a flat-nosed lady stood up from among the women audience, and said: "It is not within your right". Umar asked: "Why should this not be of my right?" she replied: "Because Allah has proclaimed: 'even if you had given one of them (wives) a whole treasure for dowry take not the least bit back. Would you take it by false claim and a manifest sin'". (Al Nisa, 20). When he heard this, Umar said: "The woman is right and the man (Umar) is wrong. It seems that all people have deeper insight and wisdom than Umar". Then he returned to the pulpit and declared: "O people, I had restricted the giving of more than four hundred dirhams in dowry. Whosoever of you wishes to give in dowry as much as he likes and finds satisfaction in so doing may do so". quoted in: "On the Position and Role of Women in Islam and Islamic Society"

Seeking advice and comfort
Narrated 'Aisha (the mother of the faithful believers): ... Then Allah's Apostle returned with the Inspiration and with his heart beating severely. Then he went to Khadija bint Khuwailid and said, "Cover me! Cover me!" They covered him till his fear was over and after that he told her everything that had happened and said, "I fear that something may happen to me." Khadija replied, "Never! By Allah, Allah will never disgrace you. You keep good relations with your kith and kin, help the poor and the destitute, serve your guests generously and assist the deserving calamity-afflicted ones." Khadija then accompanied him to her cousin Waraqa bin Naufal bin Asad bin 'Abdul 'Uzza ... (Bukhari Volume 1, Book 1, Number 3)

The Characteristics of a Believing Man
Narrated AbuHurayrah: Allah's Messenger (pbuh) said: a believing man should not hate a believing woman; if he dislikes one of her characteristics, he will be pleased with another. (Muslim Book 8, Number 3469)

The Education of Women
Narrated Abu Said: A woman came to Allah's Apostle and said, "O Allah's Apostle! Men (only) benefit by your teachings, so please devote to us from (some of) your time, a day on which we may come to you so that you may teach us of what Allah has taught you." Allah's Apostle said, "Gather on such-and-such a day at such-and-such a place." They gathered and Allah's Apostle came to them and taught them of what Allah had taught him. (Bukhari Volume 9, Book 92, Number 413)

On the Treatment of Women
Narrated Mu'awiyah al-Qushayri: I went to the Apostle of Allah (pbuh) and asked him: "What do you say (command) about our wives?" He replied: "Give them food what you have for yourself, and clothe them by which you clothe yourself, and do not beat them, and do not revile them." (Sunan Abu Dawud: Book 11, Number 2139) "The best of you is one who is best towards his family and I am best towards the family". (At-Tirmithy). "None but a noble man treats women in an honourable manner. And none but an ignoble treats women disgracefully". (At-Tirmithy).

A Husband must keep the Privacy of his Wife
Narrated AbuSa'id al-Khudri: Allah's Messenger (peace_be_upon_him) said: The most wicked among the people in the eye of Allah on the Day of Judgement is the man who goes to his wife and she comes to him, and then he divulges her secret. (Muslim Book 8, Number 3369)

A Husband's Attitude
'Umar ibn al-Khattab (RA) said that a man came to his house to complain about his wife. On reaching the door of his house, he hears 'Umar's wife shouting at him and reviling him. Seeing this, he was about to go back, thinking that 'Umar himself was in the same position and, therefore, could hardly suggest any solution for his problem. 'Umar (RA) saw the man turn back, so he called him and enquired about the purpose of his visit. He said that he had come with a complaint against his wife, but turned back on seeing the Caliph in the same position. 'Umar (RA) told him that he tolerated the excesses of his wife for she had certain rights against him. He said, "Is it not true that she prepares food for me, washes clothes for me and suckles my children, thus saving me the expense of employing a cook, a washerman and a nurse, though she is not legally obliged in any way to do any of these things? Besides, I enjoy peace of mind because of her and am kept away from indecent acts on account of her. I therefore tolerate all her excesses on account of these benefits. It is right that you should also adopt the same attitude." quoted in Rahman, Role of Muslim Women page 149

The Prophet's Disapproval of Women Beaters
Patient behavior was the practice of the Prophet, even when his wife dared to address him harshly. Once his mother-in-law- saw her daughter strike him with her fist on his noble chest. When the enraged mother -in-law began to reproach her daughter, the Prophet smilingly said, "Leave her alone; they do worse than that." And once Abu Bakr, his father-in-law, was invited to settle some misunderstanding between him and Aishah. The Prophet said to her, "Will you speak, or shall I speak?" Aisha said, "You speak, but do not say except the truth." Abu Bakr was so outraged that he immediately struck her severely, forcing her to run and seek protection behind the back of the Prophet. Abu Bakr said, "O you the enemy of herself! Does the Messenger of Allah say but the truth?" The Prophet said, "O Abu Bakr, we did not invite you for this [harsh dealing with Aishah], nor did we anticipate it." quoted in: Mutual Rights and Obligations

And Allah (swt) knows best.

Why do Moslem women wear the hijab?

Discussion Points for young people

1. Is it okay to ask questions about the customs of another culture? Why might that be a frightening thing to do?

2. Why do some Muslim women choose to wear the hijab? Why do some choose not to?

3. How is the hijab a form of liberation for the women who choose to wear it? How is it a form of constraint?

4. How does the hijab provide a woman with an identity? Why might a Muslim woman want her religious beliefs to show up-front?

5. What does the need for the hijab suggest about the Muslim view of men? Why has its purpose been misunderstood?

6. Syed says that people evaluate her on the basis of who she is when she wears her hijab, not on her beauty or her clothing. But, she also says, that people sometimes assume that she is stupid, or doesn't speak English well, based on her choice of dress. Does the hijab free a young woman from one form of oppression only to put her in the path of another?

7. In your opinion, does the hijab successfully address the problem of the over-emphasising of women's bodies that Hussein describes in her article? Is a woman's voice stronger if her body is veiled?

8. Does the legal right to go topless empower women or degrade them?

resound

make sure that my blog is still exist although i never check it since i was sooo damn busy lately ^^"

Cacing Misterius

Beberapa hari yang lalu, waktu aku mau mandi, tiba-tiba aku dihadang oleh seekor cacing gendut. Cacing buronan yang udah aku incer selama berhari-hari karena mengganggu ketentramnku di kamar mandi.

Seluruh dunia tau kalo aku ANTI bin jijik alias benci sama hewan yg satu ini. Selain karena bentuknya yang panjang konsisten, udah gitu warnanya gag jelas gt (merah bukan, coklat juga bukan) eugh pokonya jijay banget deh!

Begitu tau ada cacing yang lagi ngetem di atas ubin gitu, aku langsung il-feel dan gag jadi mandi. Secara, lumayan panjang dan bikin aku langsung teriak-teriak lebay. Rasanya kayak serangan jantung siang itu.

“ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I HATE WORMIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!”

Tapi tiba-tiba, otakku merespon sebuah rencana jahat yang terlintas akibat dendamku sama cacing jelek itu.

Yang jelas, rencanaku itu lebih kejam dan sadis dari mutilasi. Kok mutilasi, megang aja amit-amit.

TING! (ada lampu 5 watt yang nyala di atas kepalaku)

Ideku ini pasti berhasil membuat cacing kampret itu kapok 7 turunan untuk nongol di kamar mandi.

Secepat kilat aku lari ke dapur dan ngambil setoples garam. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Kau akan mati tersiksa wahai cacing yang malang…gumamku. Garam itu bakal aku taburin di atas bodynya si cacing sampe dia kepanasan dan mateng pelan-pelan…(phsycopat). Cepet2 aku langsung lari ke kamar mandi. Takut cacing buronan itu berhasil kabur lagi.

Begitu sampe di depan kamar mandi, tau-tau cacing itu HILANG tanpa jejak. Buntutnya aja nggak keliatan (lagian aku juga ga bisa bedain mana kepala mana buntut^^”)

Huh, dasar cacing polos! Emang dia pikir aku bakal nyerah apa? Aku bakal nunggu sampe dia keluar dari persembunyiannya.

5 menit berlalu…

Si cacing belum nongol.

10 menit…

Mungkin dia udah punya firasat, sesuatu yang buruk akan menimpanya.

15 menit…

Aku masih optimis, cacing itu akan segera menemui ajalnya.

17 menit…

Sudah mulai bosan dan semakin dendam. Cacing buronan itu udah berkali-kali mempermainkan aku kayak gini.

Dalam hati aku bersumpah, akan menjadikan cacing kampung itu sebagai umpan ikan piranha yang lebih ganas dari spesies sungai Amazon. Awas kau cacing keparat, suatu hari aku akan menangkapmu!!!

to be continued . . .

Beautiful romance or just ROMANTIC HOPELESS?

love is an escape of two people who don't know how to be alone . . .

Evelyn Salt

the sworn for Angelina Jolie, and can't hardly wait for this movie...
movie night with the gang on GIRLS NIGHT OUT with SALT!!!

drama is BORING...action is adrenaline..it's my thing! :]

Paprika

ya ampuuuuuuuuuunnnn,,,hmmm boring bgt ne rasanya di rumah..
pngen ada aktifitas lagi..
lg mo nylesein KEPRIBAND but i've stuck in the last chapter!! ugh,,sebel!!
knapa c qu jd sering ngblank kya gini????
Lombanya juga bentar lg deadline,,tp qu blom bkin 1 puun (-__-)"
guide me God,,
waduh,,lupa bawa USB T.T
pdahal ada tulisan seru yg mo qu posting..baru inget stelah nyampe sini.
apakah stress menyebabkan efek pikun??
hohoho,,,perhapz . . .

Alhamdulillah

for nearly a month, i did not open my lovely blog .. and it was very nostalgic to write here...


hem,,qu mo nulis apa hya??? sebenrnya lagi ga ada ide apa2, tapi udah lama banget nih gag ketemu sama aurora...n ternyata, waktu log in, aku yang salah ngetik email..jadinya harus ngecek dulu pake akun lama..hohoho...
repot juga kalo udah pikun gini^^''

to be cont :-*

Sekantung Embun (Quote of The Day)

"Nearly all men can stand adversity, but if you want to test a man's character, give him power"
(Abraham Lincoln)

Kill Mine

The evil easy to come when I really enjoy my lonely... Come on Cha, don't hit your amygdala when it creates some bad idea on your mind. Play your neocortex. Make it possible than your feeling. Feeling and thought is 2 opposite things that always exist in different way. REFRESH them... Think, do, and create a positive than make some disease and pain on this self. Oh Allah, help me to overcome...

The Meaning of Oranges^^

Last night, he came to my house and bring me a bunch of oranges (why I’d say ‘a bunch’??? Cause it seems like a thousands of roses that comes)

I was really upset after he sent me sms and told about the moon on the night sky. Then he asked me to get outdoor and seeing the moon behind the grey clouds embrace. I don’t mind what he wants. Just spreads a romantic jokes or something like that? I confused.

But in the minutes, he was appeared with the nice smile and best dressed up, shiny black shoes, sweet smelling, and sack of oranges! Even my dad said he looks like a regent aide!!! Hahaha !!! LOL but I love his fake.

OMG!!! WHAT A PRETTY SURPRISE !!!

Surely, he never did the same before merely. And my mind suddenly get off, thought about his surprise and felt so wow!!! He did it to me??? What’s the means???

The curtain of clouds and the moon shy was witness all.

We get the warm talk and sometimes stupid jokes but I was really, sooo delighted!

What would he get to talked about? Why he did was then?

Is there something blooming on his thoughts or in his selfish heart?

I know, I ever wish that on my loneliness day. Imagine about him that spreads very core to my days. Talk together, see each other, laughing honestly, and tell everything we’ve been trough…

Did I looked so tacky? Yeah, it’s just an ordinary tragedy maybe. But for me, he did awesome! Even though he never show off his romanticism clearly to me, but it was more than a proof that he feels the same like me too...I guess, something i called : L/O/V/E

Baby, you are pretty creative!

Liebe dich….

Berantakan

Lumayan stress waktu ngecek novelku. Agak menyakitkan juga sih, coz harus me review lagi, review lagi (-__-)! How come? ya iyalah,,konsepnya 50% SALAH!!!! ya begini ini kalo ngga pake outline. akhirnya tulisan jadi ngalor ngidul gak jelas! ocha, ocha...ck ck ck... Tadinya, novel bertema humor ini mau aku bikin dengan setting Jogja. Kayaknya nyeni aja kalo lokasinya di sana. Tapi setelah aku baca lagi, kok gag nyambung yah? Lucu sih lucu, tapi gimanaaa gitu. well, kenapa ngga bikin yang lokal punya? alias setting Malang sini aja? Lagian aku juga lebih tau n hafal seluk beluk kota ini. menyadari bahwa aku udah ngelakuin kesalahan fatal, so mau gak mau harus aku 'renovasi' total nih sama tulisanku. walaupun butuh waktu lebih banyak n konsentrasi tinggi, tapi nggak papa lah..Pengorbanan itu adalah jodoh dari sebuah impian. padahal udah bab 11!!! higz higz higz!!! Dan kelihatan banget kalo aku harus men delete separuhnya biar perfecto. apalagi banyak deskripsi gak penting yg 'boros' kata-kata. OCHA CAYO!!!!!

Just Loving, but still not Having you ...

Kunk, Aku sayang kamu....

Escape

The sun shine glowing the day without any worry and makes human reckless to step up trough a thousands of seconds that comes.

Last night, I was get sleep when my mom and my brothers were engrossed watching comedy on TV and giggling so much when I felt so aloof in my room.

They go to bed earlier without knowing something flimsy influenced me. The weakness has take control. Makes myself become so faint.

It’s practically did awesome on my mind instead.

Something happened and I just scraped my arms around my head. Gotta depressed when thought about my future and the termination of my job. It’ll get dizzy and don’t know how it’d be like.

Being unemployment is more than worst! I have no idea.

Sometimes, the future is comes when the human take their decision about matures. Adult should take an action to become established of themselves. I was doing so. But last night, I get lost!

It was confused me merely. What should I?

And then, the friendship doesn’t always solving some trouble simultaneously. Is that pity? When I have my BFF, but she doesn’t help me so much. It seems like undefended!

She just talking about her complicated relationship with the same guys and it was so dull topic all the way. Hate that! Felt I wanna say these :

She lives in a fairy tale
Somewhere too far for us to find
Forgotten the taste and smell
Of the world that she’s left behind
It’s all about the exposure the lens I told her
The angles were all wrong now
She’s ripping wings off of butterflies

And even when I’e paid enough, been pulled apart or been held up

With every single memory of the good or bad faces of luck

Run…I wanna run faster…so long from this situation. But I am not a wimp.

It’s just some escape. B’cuz God is always exist.

I took a wudhu, then spell the Isha’s intention.

Up the worship on 2.00 a.m …

When the night got it serenity and glory…

I whispered to God,

That I won’t be like this continuously.

I asked Him, please guide me, and take me higher …

Show me Your kindness by what I’ve done…

I said, Allah...

Now I receive nothing of what I want yesterday.

But I receive everything of what I need today.

Thank you God …

Allahu Akbar

Endless Love

For a long time, I’ve been here

And sit alone been waiting for someone I called

My endless love

I’ll keep this arms to embrace him in my pray,

and in my dream every night

hope someday, he’ll do the same

I just felt miss him very core

Down in this heart just to loving him all the way

Didn’t you notice?

Spread my feeling and it’s always countless from my mouth

Felt it’s all wrong the way we’ve done

Love is hypocrite

And seemed that’s nonexistent

But we just keep believing …

I scraped my knees while I was praying

About you, about we…then in the free fall I will realize

I want you!

I won’t this!

I want you be mine . . .

And hope may God whispered you

‘till you were here, by my side…

Endless love …

Inside Of

I'm not a perfect girl...
my hair doesn't alwayz stay in place and i spill things a lot. I'm pretty clumsy and sometimes I have a broken heart. my friends and I sometimes fight and maybe nothing goes right. but when I think about it and take step back, I remember how amazing life truly is... and that maybe....just maybe I like being unperfect!

Sekantung Embun (Quote of The Day)

Watch your thoughts; they become words.

Watch your words; they become actions.

Watch your actions; they become habits.

Watch your habits; they become character.

Watch your character; it becomes your destiny.
(Frank Outlaw)

Berbisnis Dengan Allah

Nggak semua hal dalam hidup ini bisa didapetin manusia secara klise. Nggak ada. Karena sejak terjadinya alam semesta, Allah udah mengatur setiap kehidupan mahluknya dengan sangat detil di Lauhl Mahfudz, baik qadha dan qadar nya.

Allah menciptakan, apa yang kita sebut PROSES, apa yang kita sebut COBAAN, dan apa yang kita sebut HARAPAN.

Allah menciptakan semua itu satu paket!

Dan, jangan pernah lupa, Allah itu Maha Pemurah. So, jangan hawatir, semuanya bisa berubah tergantung negosiasi. Harga cocok, insya Allah jalannya mulus. Tapi inget, yang dimaksud ’harga’ di sini adalah jerih payah kita. Ngerti??? Good!

I am NOT kidding! Trust me!

Aku menginginkan banyak hal dalam hidupku. Entah itu secara lahir dan batin. Dunia, maupun the hereafter. Tapi aku sadar. Tanpa usaha, semua itu hanyalah ke-ko-so-ngan. Nggak ada satu benda pun yang turun begitu aja dari langit (kecuali hujan). Aku juga mengerti, bahwa nggak semua hal dalam hidup ini dapat aku capai dengan sempurna. Tapi aku tau, gimana caranya dan menabrak semua ketentuan-ketentuan yang mutlak tentang kehidupan.

Berbisnislah denganNya.

Pasti kaget kan?

Susah-susah gampang. Pertama, ketahuilah kita nggak sedang face to face dengan sesama mahluk. Tapi, the supreme God. Jadi, bersikaplah se arif mungkin. Karena hanya ada satu kunci untuk mendatangkan mukjizat atau keajaiban-keajaiban hidup ini. yaitu ikhlas.

Ikhlas hanyalah step awal. Yang kedua?

Berfikir terbalik untuk merayu Allah. Hey! Siapa bilang kita nggak bisa menipu Tuhan? Tentu itu amat sangat mungkin.

Berlagaklah seolah kita senang dengan penderitaan maupun cobaan yang ditimpakan pada kita. Katakan padaNya bahwa kita sanggup melewatinya, dan ucapkanlah syukur berkali-kali, bahkan untuk setiap sen uang yang kita dapat meskipun sebenarnya kita sengsara setengah mati. Pujilah setiap ciptaanNya walau kata orang di sekitar kita itu biasa aja. Bukankah tuhan, suka sekali dirayu? Kalau kita rajin merayu, insya Allah, Allah pasti luluh, apalagi Allah Maha loyal. Otomatis apa yang diberikanpun tak tanggung-tanggung.

Ada satu yang menarik. Saat kita menginkan sesuatu, yang harganya 1.000.000 rupiah, sementara uang yang kita punya Cuma 100.000. apakah mungkin kita bisa dapetin barang itu? Gampang banget.

Sedekahkanlah uang itu. Dan insya Allah, kita akan mendapatkan apa yang kita idam-idamkan dengan cara dan waktu yang super ajaib.

Sadar nggak sih, apa yang kita lakuin di atas adalah bentuk ’bisnis’ kita dengan Tuhan? Tukarlah apa yang kita miliki dengan kebaikan, dan tunggulah balasan dari Allah bagi orang-orang yang beriman.

Allah menyukai bisnis yang halal. Sebagai contoh, aku ceritain percakapan antara aku dan hatiku :

Aku : Pengen punya baju motif bunga di Lolly Shop, tapi uangku Cuma 50.000. Gimana ya???

Hatiku : Nabung nggak mungkin. Kelamaan.

Aku : Tapi aku pengeeeen banget.

Hatiku : Uang ini aku sedekahin aja ah...Semoga Allah memberi pahala dengan menjodohkan aku sama baju pink itu..amiiin^^.

Eng ing eeeeeng! Tiba-tiba, waktu ulang tahun, sahabatku ngado aku dengan baju itu. Don’t u think that it’s a miracle???

A Story about loser : from ZERO to HERO__from NOTHING to SOMETHING

Life is not about finding yourself, but creating yourself…

(Anonymous)

Setiap kali menjelang tidur, aku selalu merenung tentang arti jati diri yang selama ini aku cari. Apa itu jati diri? Bagaimana jati diri itu, seperti apa, kapan, dan di mana aku bisa menemukannya?

Apakah jati diri adalah sebuah ‘penemuan’ siapakah diri ini sebenarnya? Or is just the way I’ve trough to get the meaning of life?

Terkadang, aku ngerasa lahir sebagai pecundang saat aku ngga bisa ngeraih hal yang seharusnya bisa dilakukan semua orang. Terkadang aku negrasa begitu bodoh, nggak berguna, dan nggak punya arti hanya karena aku terlalu sering gagal dan nggak seberuntung teman-temanku yang lain.

Waktu ketemu mereka, setelah tiga tahun nggak bertemu semenjak lulus SMA, mereka terlihat begitu terpelajar dengan pengalaman akademis mereka sebagai mahasiswa dan seperti terlahir dengan wajar karena menikmati apapun yang seharusnya mereka dapetin. And I am not.

Ada yang kuliah di jurusan hukum di Universitas unggulan, ada yang ngambil jurusan bisnis, ada yang aktif organisasi ini itu, bahkan ada yang dengan bangganya bercerita dengan sukacita bahwa setahun lagi dia akan lulus dari Universitas di Belanda tempat di mana dia selama ini mendapatkan beasiswa. Dan menurutku, mereka semua, alhamdulillah beruntung. Kemudian mereka akan bertanya, apa kegiatanku selama ini?

Kuliah ?

Aku menggeleng. Namun tetap berusaha tersenyum tabah, walau dadaku sesak.

Kursus?

Nggak. Kataku. Aku sudah punya banyak keahlian pikirku.

Kerja?

Ya.

Kerja di mana? Sebagai apa?

Aku menjawab tegar : Di super market. Sebagai SPG Detergen.

Seharusnya aku nggak perlu berkecil hati dengan semua ini. Aku tahu, aku pintar. Semua piala maupun piagam yang pernah aku dapetin sebagai “Yang Terbaik” atau “Juara” adalah bukti bahwa aku cukup brilian sekalipun saat itu akhirnya aku ‘hanya’ seorang SPG Detergen. Kayaknya ada yang berteriak dengan lantang dalam hatiku :

“Belajarlah bersyukur dan bersabar dengan menghargai secuil manfaat yang pernah kamu lakuin. STOP menyalahi keadaan dan tetaplah bangga sama semua jerih payahmu seremeh apapun itu.

DON’T EVER BLAME YOURSELF FOR EVERYTHING HAPPENED TO YOU?!”

Lalu sebuah pandangan baru datang ketika aku nonton Spiderman. Kisah yang seluruh dunia tau, kalo Spiderman sebenernya adalah seorang mahasiswa ngaret bernama Peter Parker atau cowok culun yang dianggap ‘nerd’ di lingkungan sekitarnya. Dia hanya seorang cowok biasa, yang nggak cakep, dan sering diledek temen-temennya karena aneh dan lain-lain. Tapi mereka semua nggak tau, bahwa si culun ini adalah pahlawan yang selama ini sering menyelamatkan kota dan yang menjadi deadline di semua media massa. Semua temennya nggak sadar, bahwa temen mereka yang sering dikerjain ini adalah Super Hero dan mungkin nggak akan percaya hanya karena dia ‘nerd’.

Namun apa yang didapetin Peter Parker ini nggak semata pemberian seluruhnya saat dia kegigit laba-laba. Pada awalnya, dia malah ga bisa bergelantungan layaknya laba-laba bahkan melompat dengan tangkas dari gedung satu ke gedung lainnya. Nggak hanya itu, Peter sendiri pernah membuktikan keberadaan kekuatannya yang ajaib itu dengan mengikuti sebuah pertarungan tinju puritan. Dia menciptakan kostumnya sendiri yang keliatan konyol dan akhirnya pulang babak belur.

Hari demi hari berlalu. Peter masih aja belom mengerti, di mana sebenernya letak kekuatan itu. Tapi dia terus berlatih untuk mengetahuinya. Setiap hari dia belajar melompat, memanjat gedung-gedung tinggi walau berkali-kali jatuh dan gagal. Tapi yang namanya hukum alam itu pasti akan berubah ketika manusia selalu melawannya. Dan itu juga yang dialami Peter. Usaha itu akhirnya membuahkan hasil dan ia menjadi Super Hero yang di puja-puja oleh masyarakat yang merasa nyawanya telah diselamatkan oleh super hero ini.

Does he lucky at first? Nope. In the first, he just a looser. Now, he’s super hero and create his own lucky by his unlucky.

Apa yang aku ceritain di atas, masih sebuah fiksi. Karena aku masih punya kisah yang lebih menyentuh tentang ‘Looser’ ini.

Kali ini tentang seorang Panglima yang bernama Temudjin. Yang namanya tercatat sebagai penakluk imperium terluas sepanjang sejarah peradaban manusia. Nama panglima ini lebih dikenal dengan julukan kehormatannya yaitu, Jengis Khan. Kaisar Semesta.

Jengis Khan adalah pria mongol putra seorang kepala suku dari klan Khan. Ayahnya dibunuh oleh suku lawan dan pada usia 9 tahun, dan Temudjin akhirnya menjadi sandera suku lawan. Selama menjadi tawanan musuh, Temudjin dipasung dengan sebuah gelang bambu yang diikatkan pada batang lehernya agar tak bisa lolos. Dia hanyalah salah satu dari sekian banyak rakyat Mongol yang hidup dalam kemiskinan dan kelaparan dan waktu-waktu dilalui dengan perang antar suku.

Lalu gambaranku tentang sosok Jengis Khan ini jadi semakin jelas waktu aku secara nggak sengaja menonton filmnya yang berjudul Mongol karya seorang sutradara asal Rusia.

Saat itu Temudgin terkena panah waktu melarikan diri dari tawanan. Musuh terus mengejar Temudgin untuk dibunuh tapi akhirnya diselamatkan oleh wanita Mongol dari suku asal Temudgin yang bernama Bote dan di kemudian hari menjadi isterinya.

Sebelumnya Temudjin pernah dijadikan budak selama masa pelariannya dan hendak dibeli oleh seorang bangsawan Cina. Lalu seorang Biksu yang menyertai bangswan Cina itu juga saat bertemu Temudgin pertamakali, meramal bahwa Temudjin ini nantinya akan menjadi seorang yang tangguh dan dihormati. Temudjin lalu meminta tolong pada biksu itu untuk menyampaikan pesan pada isterinya Bote. Dan akhirnya, Bote pun dapat menebus suaminya sendiri.

Temudgin lalu diterima oleh kepala suku sekaligus panglima perang dalam sukunya saat itu yang bernama Jamukha. Pada masa itu, persaudaraan sesama suku teramat kuat. Maka Jamukha pun menganggap Temudgin ini seperti adiknya sendiri. Temudgin lalu sering diajak berperang. Lama kelamaan, Temudgin semakin ahli dan terlatih sehingga banyak pasukan yang mulai menaruh hormat pada Temudgin. Nggak berhenti sampai di situ, pasukan Temudgin semakin hari semakin banyak dan membuat Jamukha iri. Karena jumlah pasukan yang bergeser kepada Temudgin semakin banyak, maka Jamukha memutuskan untuk berperang dengan Temudjin untuk menentukan satu panglima diantara mereka.

Perang pun dimulai. Kedua kubu berjumlah besar saling bertemu untuk berperang. Saat itu dari kedua belah pihak memiliki ribuan pasukan. Namun jumlah pasukan Temudgin jauh lebih kecil dibanding pasukan Jamukha.

Dan pada saat kedua kubu saling menyerang, tiba-tiba langit menjadi gelap gulita. Petir dan guntur saling bersahutan. Lalu apa yang terjadi? Para pasukan kelimpungan dan panik bukan main. Barisan mereka kocar-kacir dan mencari perlindungan sendiri-sendiri. Semuanya berlindung di balik tameng-tameng mereka dan kuda-kuda mereka. Tak ada yang tinggal di atas tunggangannnya selain Temudgin. Dia hanya tertegun sambil merasa heran menatap sekelilingnya yang tiba-tiba senyap akibat cuaca yang tiba-tiba berubah drastis. Lalu sesaat kemudian, waktu cuaca kembali sedikit normal, para pasukan yang tadi ketakutan ini bangkit dan mengelu-elukan Temudjin. Mereka pun mengakui Temudgin lah pemimpin sejati mereka.

Cerita punya cerita, banyak pasukan Jamukha yang menyerahkan diri pada Temudgin. Semua pasukan Mongol mengakui kedigdayaan Temudgin pada saat itu. Termasuk Jamukha yang merasa kalah sekaligus kagum pada saudara angkatnya itu. Lalu aku masih inget kata Jamukha sewaktu menyerahkan diri di hadapan Temudgin.

“Silahkan bunuh aku saudaraku…”

Temudgin menggeleng sambil berkata “Aku tidak akan membunuh saudaraku sendiri…”

Jamukha bersimpuh haru sambil bertanya, “Saudaraku, mengapa kau tidak takut petir? Bukankah semua orang Mongol takut petir….?”

Lalu Temudjin menjawab dan sekaligus jadi ungkapan yang sangat berkesan dalam ingatanku tentang sebuah kemalangan.

“Mengapa aku tidak takut petir? Itu karena aku tak pernah punya tempat berlindung…”

When the story end, do you still guess that Temudgin is lucky?

Never. He get his lucky by Fighting.

Ok, I think, I’ll never get enough about something that I always adore. Itu adalah segelintir kisah nyata yang inspiratif tentang sebuah perjuangan hidup di tahun 1200 an..Aku masih punya banyak kisah tentang para ‘Looser’ lainnya yang pada akhirnya bangkit karena ketidakberuntungan selalu akrab dengan orang-orang macam ini.

Kisah yang paling baru, yang aku baca akhir-akhir ini tentang sorang pengusaha sukses kaliber dunia, pemilik Machintos. Dialah Steve Jobs.

Steve Jobs ini seorang anak tanpa ayah yang dilahirkan dari seorang ibu tamatan SMA dan merupakan anak dari hasil hubungan di luar nikah. Semenjak dalam kandungan si ibu malah sudah merencanakan untuk menyerahkan anaknya pada orang yang mau mengadopsi anaknya. Tujuan si ibu supaya anaknya kelak bisa kuliah sampai sarjana dan tak seperti dirinya. Tapi begitu lahir, orang tua angkat Steve Jobs meninggal dunia dan hak asuhnya dikembalikan pada orang tua kandungnya.

Walau akhirnya orang tua Steve dapat menyekolahkannya hingga perguruan tinggi, karena alasan keuangan dan minatnya yang tidak terlalu pada jurusan yang dia ambil, Steve memutuskan keluar dan luntang-lantung selama beberapa lama.

Steve menjalani hari-harinya sebagai orang yang kehilangan tujuan sekaligus kehilangan semangat hidup. Saat itu dia berpikir bahwa ia akan gagal seperti orang tuanya. Lama ia hidup di jalanan, dan sering mengikuti mata kuliah temannya secara diam-diam. Dan lama-kelamaan ia mulai tertarik pada mata kuliah itu (aku lupa banget namanya apa) yang terfokus pada seni membuat kaligrafi dan yang dikemudian hari sangat bermanfaat bagi merk Apple nya. Beberapa tahun setelah itu Steve mendirikan perusahaan pertamanya dengan menggaji beberapa ahli IT untuk membantunya merancang penemuan software mutakhir hingga saat ini. Dan sampai kini, kedigjayaan Machintos terus menggurita sampai sekarang dengan omset miliaran dolar per tahunnya.

Have you think that ‘lucky’ is come by itself without struggling? If you say ‘ya’ it means you were too long living in your empty dreams. So, you are nonsen!

Begitu banyak kisah yang ingin aku critain di sini, tentang kehebatan para ‘looser’ yang semula seolah menjadi sampah masyarakat, bermasa depan suram, dan semua sugesti negatif tentang orang-orang malang ini. Aku jadi negrti kenapa film-film produksi Amerika sering menceritakan sosok super hero yang tadinya bukan siapa-siapa. Tentu saja, barangkali, di sanaya sendiri untuk bangkit dan mengubah takdir mereka. banyak para looser lainnya yang siap melabrak nasibn

Di saat Albert Einstein pernah di DO karena dianggap gagal dalam kuliahnya, Thomas Alfa Edison yang dulu pernah pula ‘ditendang’ dari sekolahnya karena dikira idiot, Jengis Khan yang pernah menjadi budak, Peter Parker si culun, dan Steve Jobs yang malang, menjadi referensi dalam mencari jati diri rasanya udah memenuhi angan-anganku tentang masa depan, aku nggak punya lasan lagi untuk menyerah apalagi berhenti untuk meraih cita-cita.

Mereka adalah bukti yang menjawab pertanyaanku selama ini. Mengapa Allah selalu menciptakan kehidupan yang tidak biasa bagi orang-orang hebat. Karena Allah tahu, ketidakberuntungan akan membuat orang-orang ini kreatif, berpikir, bekerja keras, dan berjuang untuk menyulap ketidakberuntungan itu menjadi berkah yang tiada tara. Kesulitan-kesulitan hidup itu ibarat makanan mereka sehari-hari dan tumbuh menjadi manusia-manusia tangguh. Sebelum pada akhirnya menjadi pintu keberhasilan yang menempa mereka menjadi orang yang benar-benar hebat dan pantas mendapatkan hasil yang luar biasa juga. Kesulitan memfermentasikan mereka menjadi apa yang mereka inginkan.

Ya Muhaimin, terima kasih telah menganugerahkan kesulitan-keseulitan ini dalam hidupuku. Terima kasih telah menakdirkan aku menjadi orang yang ‘berbeda’ dari teman-temanku. Terima kasih untuk ketidakberuntungan yang pernah Kau berikan disaat aku belum memahaminya. Terima kasih untuk pengertian yang Kau tanamkan dalam keyakinan hati kecilku. Terima kasih telah menciptakan keadaan ini dalam hidupku. Terima kasih telah menjadikan aku adalah aku yang sekarang. Yang tiada henti mengalami cobaan-cobaan yang Kau berikan untuk mendewasakanku. Terima kasih ya Robbana…

Bukannya Engkau ingin mendzalimiku, bukan pula Kau tidak merahmatiku dan memanjakan aku dengan kemewahan-kemewahan yang klise. Tapi kau malah mengkaruniaku dengan hidup yang sedemikian hebat ini. Yang tidak semua orang sengsara menyadari keberkahan di dalamnya. Kau tak beri aku apel, tapi Kau beri aku bibit nya untuk aku tanam. Saat kupinta emas, kau malah memberiku alat untuk menggali dan mengambil sebanyak-banyaknya. Subahanallah, Maha Suci Engkau ya Allah…

Kini bagiku, penderitaanku seolah firmanMu yang mana ingin Kau sampaikan bahwa kesulitan itu adalah kunci keberhasilanku…

Dear God, Thanks to made me like a looser, like a zero … and like a nothing.

I’ll trough this way, to get my way.

Allahu Akbar…